Sunday, December 30, 2007

I want to go Swimming



I want to go Swimming but I realized I had to get rid of my swimsuit after the last aquatic therapy session as it was too worn... (you could see through it)... So I got on E-Bay and bid on a couple of suits.

I keep my Gym membership at 24 hour fitness in south county where I used to live because they have a pool that I feel very comfortable in.

some times I think I should get rid of it. But the local rec center here although close has short hours... kids in the pool and it doesn't win any cleanliness awards. So I will keep paying my 20 dollars a month I go on average 1-2 times per month.... I know I know. what a waste... but I have good intensions like today then realize I don't have a swim suit... so I kinda hope I win both I bid on... I is kinda hard to go to a store in missouri in the middle of winter and find a swim suit.

But I am getting the treadmill down today... I moved it when we had company... and realized we need a larger carpet peice so it doesn't sctatch up the floor... a problem that haunts this new house already.... So after I go to the store and get a rug I will then get down the treadmill.... Not as fun as swimming. but It will do.

New Years Plans.

***Edgar and I went shopping yesterday at the commisary at Scott air force base. If he had his way we wouldn't shop anywere else. They do have good deals... I think he just misses military life and wants to take that opportunity to revisit it. Kinda walk down memory lane.

Anyway... My Sister may come new years day and his sister/mom may stop by... but otherwise it will be a nice quiet celebration. Just us on New Years night. we got sparking apple/pomagranite juice to ring in the new year. Shrimp and wings for new years night ...and He plans to barbeque New years day... pork steaks, hamburgers and hot dogs... don't think he saw the weather report about the artic blast that should hit us for new years.... calling for a high in the 20's. The George Foreman grill may get some use.... but he can be hard core about his BBQ. He tells me black folks get up early and BBQ all day... the same reason he wanted to get pig ears... I put my foot down on that one... he didn't push it. But i did go for the black eyed peas... and banana pudding. I't sounded weird to me to... So I think I will make my spinach casserole. (add to the weirdness and the giant pile of food) So stop on by for some eats if you dare.

Well I better go get my Rug... get started on that resolution.... Same one my whole life.

Monday, December 24, 2007

Merry Christmas Eve...

Here are a few Pictures from Christmas party at my parents house Dec. 23rd 2007

Gayla and Lucky watch the Shyanne and Grant Play.
Susie ready for Christmas.

Christmas Present time at the Pabst House.


Saturday, December 22, 2007

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas
Here is So walking around the Christmas Scene...
I am waiting for Edgar so we can wrap presents a task we have yet to get started on and although it is only Dec. 22nd. My Christmas celebration is tommorow with my family. I work Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. So this is really the last min for me. Down to the wire so to speak. He's back... time to wrap it up... Ha Ha...
Have a wonderful holiday.

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Snow Day

Snow Day!
So got snow on his snout.
Snow Day!!!



We Got about 8 inches of snow Dec 15th-16th Oh what fun it is to play in... So is not sure what to think. he likes chaceing snow balls but can't figure out why they crumble when he picks them up.










Play Play Play...
Last night we were out driving in the snow.. We heard some Thunder it was snowing so hard! Thunder Snow!!! Sounds like a super hero. The world looks so at peace in such a time. Merry Christmas.















Thursday, December 13, 2007




December 13th
I went to work today and found out that much of my Christmas list is quickly being filled. I got an E-mail from Ryan's mom saying he was dealing with the reality of needing casts to straighten his legs better than the day before. Job got his lungs!!!! and although it is still early he survived surgery and he is doing o.k. with them so far... still in the ICU... but that is to be expected. Ross's mouth soars which have been hellish and very painful filling his mouth and surrounding areas are finally taking a turn for the better and he was able to talk now and even ate a little unsalted broth. I had the best time getting him out of bed to go sneak a peek at the Christmas gifts his grandparents brought him. Belinda a hairless victim of chemotherapy had on a shirt that said "I'm too sexy for my hair." And although Dylan didn't exactly smile... he did request to get out of his room again tomorrow.... which I see as one step closer.... Brianna... who was told earlier this week that her cancer will very likely take her life, as her tumors have all grown rapidly depite aggressive chemotherapy, and radiation has chosen with her family to spend this christmas season at home. in peaceful and loving surroundings, and to discontinue treatment. She seems much more at peace and better able to deal with the pain and immobility that clinch her small body since the news. Her faith in God seems to be carrying her through.
So thank you god for the blessings everyday. and for filling my Christmas list so rapidly.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Dear Santa,


Dear Santa,
I have a little wish list for this year. I have worked all year to help kids maintain their mobility through their life threating illnesses and accidents. So my list is just is more of a blessing for them. My list is kinda long so I hope you will understand. ( We may have to consult Heavenly Father for this one)
*I want a cure for all types of cancer.
*Hair for everyone who loses theirs during chemotherapy.
*Tolerance for Ryan when I have to place his legs in casts
*New Lungs that work well for Job
*Stem Cells that will fix Christopher's spine so he can walk again.
*Mylan for those nerve cells that have lost theirs and caused Ella to becomce very weak
* Activation and function of damaged Brain cells for those who have suffered a traumatic brain injury including Rita and Sean.
* Improved liver function for Jack who has suffered the past 3 years and survived 2 liver transplants.
*Ability to communicate effectively for Tiffani.
*Smiles for Dylan who thinks things will never get better.
*Healing for the soars in Ross's mouth so he can talk and eat again.
* Good health for all those kids I don't know by name.
*A peaceful death to those kids God has called home at this Christmas season.
Please bless all those who support these kids and let them know they are loved.
This is my Prayer for Christmas....
Have a wonderful Chirstmas
May God Bless us everyone.

Okay so the flowers are sideway.... it makes the post a little different.
not much going on just getting ready for Christmas...
Thought I'd just Say Merry Christmas..

Wednesday, December 5, 2007




This is my buddy Ryan












This is So's friend Fritzy.

Time

I really don't understand how time passes so quickly. But anyway.

Yesterday I took So for his every other week play day at the Patricks house. See I met Ryan because he was a patient of mine who has a very rare disorder and has survived much longer than any other person with his disorder... there is a copy of his profile from his careingbridge site.

Ryan our 3rd child was born Thanksgiving Day 1996. Twenty-one days later we rushed frantically to the ER with Ryan in a coma, near death from undiagnosed Insulin Dependent Diabetes. Ryan was 10 months old when he became the first baby to use an insulin pump regularly.
At 4 months old Ryan was diagnosed with extreme life-threatening food allergies to dairy, eggs, soy, nuts, legumes, wheat, grains, fish, corn, & apples. His Dr. wondered if he would become allergic to all things to which he was exposed. It seemed impossible to forge a future for him. Peanuts on one’s breath/a crumb of dairy accidentally ingested meant anaphylaxis.
At 3 yrs old Ryan was part of his Immunologist’s study conducted to isolate the gene causing Ryan’s medical problems: diabetes, food & environmental allergies, malabsorption. His disease was given a name: X-Linked Autoimmunity Allergic Disregulation Syndrome (XLAAD). It attacks males causing the immune system to "switch ON" but not "OFF". A history for XLAAD was compiled: no child survived into adulthood, most died as infants or toddlers. Ryan’s prognosis: Death! Only the fact that Ryan had already survived beyond where most boys died sustained our hopes that a treatment or cure would be found.
Over his 4th birthday Ryan’s digestive tract lost ability to absorb nutrition. He lost ¼ of his body weight in 3wks. Ryan was hospitalized with the usual “end stages" of XLAAD. Amazing teamwork, innovation by Ryan’s medical team, prayers and God's Grace kept him alive. Intense immune suppression meds and 24hr/day IV nutrition (TPN) sustained him. We didn’t know if Ryan would live let alone eat food again.
Ryan developed Adrenal Insufficiency from his immune suppression medications at age 5. He had life threatening Adrenal Attacks whenever active or excited. He required continual emergency life-saving interventions. It became clear his best chance to survive was a bone marrow transplant - before his immune suppression meds left his organs so broken they would fail him. How could our precious little guy be so sick? He seemed like any other little kid: he just had a ticking time bomb for an immune system.
At St. Louis Children’s Hospital on the first day of Spring 2004 Ryan received his bone marrow transplant: a renewed chance for life! He was 7 years old at the time. An anonymous donor from the other side of the planet supplied the bone marrow! Ryan is now fully engrafted. His XLAAD is "in remission".
NOW Ryan struggles with complications from the transplant: chronic Graft Versus Host Disease (cGVHD). This disease attacks Ryan’s soft tissue. He cannot straighten his joints, contends with scleroderma, is limited by eye pain, and has lost his ability to walk, is being challenged with reduced lung capacity and damage among many medical issue. In November Ryan had a malignant lemon sized tumor removed from his back.
Ryan is currently on immune suppression meds, doing Extracoporeal Photopheresis bi-weekly, and Occupational & Physical Therapies weekly to try to rehabilitate his body.
Ryan’s life is a minute by minute struggle. It takes God's help in the forms of: love, commitment, strength, faith, intelligence and endurance to survive each day. God continues to provide us with, constant help from devoted friends, church family, community, and an amazing team of medical professionals to maintain Ryan's life each day!
Throughout all the medical obstacles Ryan has always stayed tough, intelligent and witty ... until this year. Battling cGVHD has nearly drained his joy! He is making progress and we have seen his spirit grow in strength again. But he is “hit” with new medical issues and heavy challenges daily. We see Ryan’s mood improving and mobility getting better. We fervently hope to see him genuinely happy again.
We pray that Ryan gets a chance to live his life to the fullest and that he knows faith in God, love, strength, purpose, happiness and joy through all his trials.

I realize that it sounds so horrible... but at this point Ryan is doing much better. and although he still struggles he is a great kid full of spit and vinegar.... and a smart ass to boot.
Well my dog has a great time playing over at their house. and Ryan enjoys being a paid dog sitter... I pay him $4.00 per visit... it was a negotiated price. I said 5 and he said 3 so we met in the middle. It is always fun to here the funny things So and Ryan's dog fritzy do together. He and Edgar plan to go fishing come spring.... we had planned top go this fall but Ryan eneded up in the hospital with a line infection... but none the less Ryan still calls Edgar his fishing buddy. I didn't mean to make the post all about Ryan but he has a heartwarming story and I really do enjoy spending time with his fam... well I better go get busy... ttfn (ta ta for now) from tigger.

Sunday, December 2, 2007

Still more pictures, so you feel like you get your money's worth.



St. Louis Cathedral. NOLA









Best Friends







and Lovers






On Top of the world















Living in America.

Halloween pictures




And this is my best friend Diana. Halloween 2007. Her Friend... Stamper.

PS: Diana made her own costume.

Can't you just feel the pull to go to New Orleans?

More pictures and background

I felt the blog needed more pictures since they are worth a thousand words. so here goes....





Smart Ass & Dumb Ass
AKA Brenda & Edgar






Halloween 2007



















December 2th 2007



So thats my dogs name.... well he figured out how to get the lid off of his toy box today. (The picture above was his old toy basket... now it is inside an ottoman) Dogs are a lot smarter than we give them credit for.
I am going to go hunting again today.... I have been hunting mice all week in my basement... but this time I hope i don't get anymore.... I have killed 2 so far... both on my craft table. I used an 8 gauge trap laced with peanut butter covered in grass seed which was their drug of choice in the basement. So I will try one more time... but with the hole plugged (I hope) and warmer weather outside I hope I am not able to trap any in my basement.

I better get busy christmas isn't going to fix its self this year... and the weekends go fast. Love... Brenda